When I say I’m a perfectionist
I mean I’m lazy and terrified
When I say that I am anxious
I mean I’m sober enough to drive
When I’m feeling this
Powerless
I want you to hate me
the way I hate myself
I’m pushing everyone away
I’m pushing everyone away
No one should care if I’m okay
Since I’m pushing everyone away
When I blame it on the timing
But it's really cuz the feelings aren't there
When I make it like my guard is up but I've given up and do not even care
The more you try
The more I hide
I think I'm contagious
And I don't want to spread my sorrow
I’m pushing everyone away
I’m pushing everyone away
No one should care if I’m okay
Since I’m pushing everyone away
Every now and then I try to force myself to care
Find myself another passionate weekend-long affair
I understand my lack of normal feelings makes you scared
I don't want to pretend that this is fair
I’m pushing everyone yes
I’m pushing everyone yes
I'm pushing everyone away
I’m pushing everyone away
No one should care if I’m okay
Since I’m pushing everyone away
credits
from Island Livin',
released December 1, 2016
Andrew Paladino - Vocals/Guitar
John Trotta - Bass/Vocals
Joe Fuscia - Drums
Oakland artist Kevin Nichols blends his love of pop melodies and Nirvana guitar tones on this first single from an upcoming full-length. Bandcamp New & Notable Jul 8, 2021